Course Participant:
I cannot feel or see the divine in what I am doing. I can give myself, everything is fine, but not in a way where I truly feel the divine moving through us, or through what is happening in the moment. I’m looking for some sign, but I don’t know how to find it…
Makaja:
It’s very simple. The divine is present in moments of highest ecstasy — and in moments of the strongest orgasms. The question is: if you experience this again and again, and it is deeply ecstatic and fulfilling for you, why are you not experiencing this state of consciousness more often? What stands between you and your ecstasy? What stands between you and the blissfulness you experience repeatedly?
When you make love with someone to whom you feel deeply attracted or someone you love, you have intense orgasms, and even before the orgasm you feel wave after wave of bliss. So this is your nature. It is your ability. It is inside you. And yet, in your daily life you experience it very rarely. So, the question is: what stands between you and your blissful nature? This is what you must meditate on. And this will transform the quality of your daily life — and of course the quality of your Maithunas (Love Making).
You must meditate on what is separating you from your blissfulness. In the moments of greatest bliss, ecstasy, and orgasm you leave your ego behind. There are no thoughts — not even thoughts about yourself. At the same time, you are completely aware. You are totally present in your limbs, your head, your belly, your chest. No one forbids you, from morning to night, to remain in your forehead, your lips, your throat, your chest, your hands and fingers, your legs and feet. You can remain in your whole body all day long. And this blissful enjoyment is yours. It is inside you. We don’t need special rituals to find God, or special prayers. It is enough to ask ourselves:
My blissful nature — I experience it again and again. When I fall in love, when I feel strong attraction for someone, when I experience powerful orgasms. So obviously, bliss is my nature.
But why do I live it only in such a small percentage every day? Who or what is between me and my blissful nature?
The answer is: my ego. My shiny ego-thoughts and fears and criticism and constant insistence that everything must be exactly my way… “She put too much salt in my soup… the apartment is not tidy enough… the garden isn’t done…” There’s always something. Or: “My boss isn’t polite enough… my colleagues are too rough…” All of this separates you from your blissful nature.
So don’t focus on what separates you from your blissfulness. Focus on what helps you remain in bliss. It is all about your concentration, the focus of your consciousness — your daily consciousness. What do you choose to focus on? The beauty within, or the problems outside?
You choose. Bliss is always present.
This is what we practice in yoga nirodha: stopping the thoughts — including even the highest thought, the thought of your beautiful, grand “I.” Let it go. Like a child. This is why children are so happy — because they don’t carry this sense of self the way adults do. Over the years, adults train the ego, and after 20 or 30 years the ego becomes very very strong. Children don’t have that, but they do have blissfulness. So yes, we are all blissful. Our nature is bliss, divine bliss.